Thursday, April 05, 2007



.......On the brighter side.......

Everything has its own reason. A happening has its own reason. Me? I have my reasons--for changing, for splurging.

Last, oh I forgot the date but it was a Wednesday for sure, Nicole and I went to Eastwood after a sem of whirlpool events. We planned this for so long and we hoped that it would be just fine but it went the other way. It was 11pm when we arrived there. We had dinner first then planned which bar to hop in. When we were about to go in, first, my pants was not in a good mood. It keeps on falling, no exaggeration, falling. When I managed to do some miracles on it, my shoes gave up. GAVE UP! Shit! The only thing we have is one small safety pin! We were already planning crazy ways to get in to the taxi stand. Too many to mention but this one is where we agreed on the most possible--we're going to pretend we're drunk and we'll run with our bare feet. Haha. Anyways, God is so good we weren't able to face that humiliation. How? Sa amin na lang yun. *wink*



On the brighter side, maybe God really didn't want us to go. I mean, we're alone and helpless. There might be 'something' not good to happen. My shoes and pants just saved us from that. It could have been the most embarrassing moment we had and yet we really had fun. Test of friendship haha. Thanks mare, I wasn't able to say that to you but I really wanted thank you for that night. *hug hug*


I'm stuck home with nothing to do but read, watch, and sleep. My mom would not allow me to go somewhere unless I will show myself in the hospital. Yes, she would not allow me. Imagine, now that I'm 19 and all I'm experiencing to be somehow--grounded. So I have to make up stories just so she would allow me to go out. Why can't I just go to the hospital and be checked up? It's because they would do very invasive procedures on me and after studying those procedures last sem, I'm not ready to let them do that on me not even another simple ultra sound. Next, I'm not yet ready to know if I really have 'the disease'. Period.





On the brighter side, being at home brings relaxation to my lost sanity--again. I was overly stressed and super frazzled these passed months that I don't even know where to start my stories. Another thing is that I am enjoying every minute in my not-so-tidy room with Cesar my bear. I was able to kinda do some thinking and sort my mind.



I am losing weight though I'm not really on a diet. I'm not on a diet, not even exercising, not even staying late at night. My problem is that I always forget to eat. I mean, surely I'll eat if I would just remember to eat or if I would just feel hungry. Often times, I'm alone so no one is there to remind me. Ewan ko bakit ako ganito ngayon. Hmmmmm…. I'm a food lover and all. I don't want to call this 'eating disorder' because it's not. Tinamatamad lang talaga ako.



On the brighter side, i'm losing weight nga. Hahaha. Pero ayoko na, cause everybody's saying that I don't look good. Hmmmm....




On the brighter side of all of this, I am happy right now. No worries. Totally moved on and not affected. I’m kinda preoccupied that I can’t even make a serious explanation on someone that's demanding me one. (^_________^) Life is so good. I have my family, friends and I have Cesar. I think I have a good life. Plus, I am badly hoping na sana, eto na nga!! Haha panalo! (^__~)

*  *Posted by rakelyvia at 4:03 PM
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