Monday, September 25, 2006



.......SACRIFICE pala huh!?.......

What the hell!?


How would you choose between two people who play different roles in your life?



I may not answer the question but I'll just put down my thoughts (sa palagay ko lang ha) as clearly as I can outta here.



1. of course, weigh the pros and cons. If you sacrifice the other one then face the consequences you might get.



a. If person 1 hates person 2 then you choose person 2, then more probably you CANNOT talk to person 1 ever because of the fact that you know very well from the start the whole story, from the first fight and how person 1 had trusted person 2 to how person 2 betrayed person 1 in a very rough manner.



b. If you choose person 1, then you might preserve the friendship that happen to be not so established but merely established, but lose person 2 who you think, for now, you like most. But maybe you can still be friends with person 2, I don't know, but NOT VICE VERSA



2. Look on their different aspects. The foundation and basis of your "pinagsamahan"



3. Imagine yourself with the one you will choose and feel if you can live without the other
one.


4. Do you feel comfortable?



5. Are you happy?



6. Are they happy for you or you don't care at all? If that's the case, then why bother having dilemma about this?





And I wanted to clear things out. I am so galit kase nasagasaan ego ko. And I felt betrayed by YOU and you're doing things to me na you did to Bangladesh. To think na you know everything, as in everything tapos ganun na lang. Hindi mo nga ako "sinacrifice" directly but you chose to provoked me to be mad at you by doing things I disgust most. You didn't talk to me, and I really didn't know why. You asked me to do kasalanan in you, and I did. Tinapunan kita ng crumbs sa ulo in front of many people, because that's the only thing I could think that time. And you did not talk to me the whole time, and I looked so nakakahiya sa ministop the next morning pero it's ok lang since I know I did something wrong pero hello!? Nabato ko na nga yata sayo lahat e. Notebook, libro, bag, ballpen and I even threw water in you. And dahil lang sa crumbs you'll do that shit. Crap! I also hate it when you said that sinusumbatan kita, because I never make sumbat to anyone. I wanted that. I wanted what I was doing. Yung sa yellowcab, I swear I could have sumbat all but I chose not to kse hindi ko gawain un and gusto ko nman lahat ng ginawa ko. Tapos its super big deal sayo. Parang feeling ko tuloy na pinapamuka mo sa kin na I want na something in return which is not true. I cried in the cab kse you said "iba dati, iba ngayon. Na-pressure lang ako nung nagpromise ako dati" e hello!? Of all people, kaw nakakaalam na I hate broken promises. Damn! I don't even know why I bother writing this. Kse I wanted to be discreet in school. If you're feeling na sinusumbatan nga kita, ok sorry. My god! I never intended that. Akala ko joke lang sayo ung mga un, well I guess I'm wrong.




Anyways, I'm still living in P. Noval room 304, just across your street. and beside you're still a tenant here. And I still have my old number and we're still classmates after all. And thanks for the sabay pagpasok and pauwi and I promise I won't get lost kapag I take the jeep. And if I do, I won't bother you. I can still go home basta there's a cab. =D

*  *Posted by rakelyvia at 12:45 PM
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Sunday, September 24, 2006



.......BROWSING.......

i was browsing ronald's SUPER OLD BLOG when i happen to read 2 posts. i dont mean something bad here ha. natuwa lang ako.


these were the lines i almost cried about knina....


LIBRO


"pag cnusubukan kong basahin ung librong un..mtitigilan na lng ako dun sa pahinang alang nksulat..marami nga


ngsasabi,"ilipat mo nman, next page, nkksawa na yn e".. nppicp nga rin ako.. pero..di ko mgwa kc ... "sa


pahinang un nksulat na ang buong kabanata ng buhay ko..wirdo noh?"


COLORING BOOK

"ung coloring book ko, matagal nang nakatago... halos lahat na nakulayan,,, iba-iba narin ung humawak ng


crayons para maki-vandal... minsan nga walang paalam, nakikita ko nlang na may kulay na...Ü cguro pag iniwan


ko pa un na nakabukas, mas madami ung makiki-kulay... pero pinili ko ung itago.. para may matitira pa pag may


isang gustong maglagay ng kulay.."



And i even replied to this:


rakelyvia said...


hehe,, di pako pede magpost d2 e,,


ganito nlang,,mga libro kyo??


ako yung crayons and pens nyo! hehehehehehe


11:23 PM




Can't believe that we're so much grown up now. hayyy...


Miss u guys...


miss the AOM classroom at the dulo of the corridor


the multo (dragging of chairs and all)


the "stop me" of milan


waaaaaaaaahh lahat..



im in a section kse ngayon na full of insecures e...


imagine, ako nlang naiinsecure pa. tsk tsk tsk poor them..


GOD! i almost hate them. pero na-flutter n rin ako haha..


next time.. more update.

*  *Posted by rakelyvia at 12:50 AM
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Saturday, September 09, 2006



.......so what's up again.......

guys!!! haler haler!
ngayon lang ulit ako napunta dito and i dont have the luxury of time to visit all your blogs. so, wla pa din ako msyado balita. nilulubos lubos ko lang tong 1 hour before dumating si ronj from make-up duty then we'll go home sa probinsya hehe..


i'll make kwento na rin, pahapyaw lang.


so yun, i have this issue sa room that i'm using kodigo daw. so high school but nkakastereotype diba? parang pag ganun, everybody thinks the same though they havent proved anything yet. thats bad. so i was like the hottest news sa room, plus im kinda tagging along with my nagiisang-may-itsura guy classmate kasi we're technically neighbors dito sa manila tapos yun issue. someone saw us daw kissing sa bus papunta sa batangas during our community immersion. anyways, mejo mtagal na nga yan e, kaya mejo limot na yan except the kodigo issue. i don't know why they kept on pushing that issue. naiyak nga ako once eh, kse sobrang pati ibang section alam na. and yung pagkakakwento pa nila parang sure na sure sila na yun nga. hayyy.. the thing pa, ung nagsabi nun, na ako daw ung nangongodigo, mejo close kme dati and when i confronted her she just said "i said that but i didnt mean na siraan ka.". waaaaaaaahhhhhhh kaloka sila. do they think that i am ONE BIG THREAT sa academic standing nila? kasalanan ko ba kung despite my katamaran, ka-effortless-an and other co-curricular activities i get the same grade as they get kahit na 24/7 silang gising just to study? sorry, but i still find time to sleep noh.


anu pa ba? i'm super busy (obvious ba?) in fact, pag-uwi ko sa cogeo mag-aaral pa din ako and magttype ng requirements sa RLE (7 units it0). and for the next weeks, hell week. community immersion, finals, anaphysio. pucha! so this is the life i choose, kaya ko to! =)


chel ann---nahihiya pa din ako sayo...

PS sa mga nkita ko last sat..
si nori, cutie ung hairstyle
memai, grabe may kwento ako syo. next time..hehee
namimiss ko na rj-sly tandem hehe pucha ang corny smen eh!
che and rap, pasulpot sulpot tlga kayo =)
si amor gumaganda tlga!!! wats d secret huH!?
miss yah guys subra!!!

guys, visit us. its (304) Galleria Suites, P. Noval Sampaloc, Manila.

pictures soon.

*  *Posted by rakelyvia at 3:10 PM
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