Thursday, April 27, 2006

.......HOW MUCH DO I WEIGH?.......

You Should Weigh 156

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.
If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

How Much Do You Weigh?

well just wanna post it, you know..motivation! haha

* *Posted by rakelyvia at 1:27 PM

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Monday, April 24, 2006

.......kel.......

kel, wla lang!! hahah d2 pko sa skul, di ako mkuwi kc i didnt bring my keys!! tawag ako jan l8r! muah muah! i miss u!(hahaha)

* *Posted by =:: tazha ::= at 1:11 PM

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Saturday, April 22, 2006

.......here it goes.......

I just came across Candice's (mimi's blockm8) blog. O well, ngayon ko lang nabasa na she also had an entry about NOTHINGNESS.haha. so this post is an addition to my first post about it.

APRIL 17: Though we've had the most complicated week so far (since the vacation started), we still found way to include nothingness in our lives. Haha.

First, we went to the swimming orientation in olopsc. Actually, in my opinion it's a waste of time because we did almost nothing. Then to 'the ATENEO' to pick up mimi. Going to 'the ATENEO' is like heaven for us (me and ronj). Haha because you can pass by those cute-good-smelling-unreachable boys (boys, as I wanted to call them), look at them and memorize all the details of their features, clothes, slippers and even their nails and hair without the fear that they might catch you and be familiarized with your face. After all, we don't everyday go to 'the ATENEO'. Just by simply sitting there, you can enjoy your trip. That's nothingness, sitting “boy watching”. Haha So after absorbing that mimi got a qpi (mimi, qpi b tawag dun??) of 3.76, even we're still amazed to the fact that she is in first honor (again, why would we be surprised? haha) we went to shakey's to grab some food and air con. So we stayed there for 2-3 hours I think, actually I can stay there pa for 5 more hours. hehe. and waited 20mins under the sun to get fx. Anyway, the point is when we arrived at mimi's we watched DVDs and eat and do nothingness. We stayed in the sala for 9hours+ talking/discussing things over and over again but we can't resolve it so it turned out that we're still talking about it over and over again. How weird, who can stand 9hours talking about a topic over and over? we're heading close to the resolution but when we're nearly agreeing to it, we will find reason pa not to. Parang we should take consideration the things that might affect us. The things those are very dear to us. Haay. So the ending was we just decided to forget about it and moved on to another subject. Haha. How helpful.

***

Speaking of cute-good-smelling-unreachable boys, aren't we old enough to flirt? I mean flirting is really healthy. Everyone do that. Oh, I'm not saying that because everyone does that we're bound to that too. It's just, what is so bad about that? Why is it always an issue? Even the simplest girl we know in town is doing that; at least in her own little way. Sometimes those oh-I'm-very-simple-and-I-don't-flirt-much-in-PUBLIC-because-its-against-my-principle-and-I-don't-want-others-thinking-that-I'm-that-kind-of-girl girls are the most successful flirts. They don't flirt in public but only God knows where. But they succeed. Sometimes I want to interview them and ask if how can they do that, flirting secretly with someone, and get some advices...Honestly, sometimes I wanted to do it (flirt) but I was always taken aback whenever I realized that there still I'm-really-conservative-don't-dare-judge-me-because-I'm-the-only-one-who-has-the-right-to-judge-you people around. See? I'm really bearing in mind what others will tell about me. Am I that considerate, eh? hehe.

Enough of that. I'm really really bored to death. But still, I cannot picture myself going to school again. Never. In four more days, I'll be swimming in the pool of Marikina Sports Park. Haha

See yah there.

* *Posted by rakelyvia at 2:47 PM

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

.......TITLE-less.......

have you heard about the word gentle? Soft? Mild? Calm? Serene? Cool? Kind? Tender? Considerate? Composed?

E how about over acting? Agitated? Frantic? Hysterical? Anxious? Cruel? Harsh? Mean? Unkind? Ruthless? Wicked?

Well, they're the exact opposite, right?

Opposite- adj. Contrary in tendency or character; diametrically different. (Funk and Wagnalls Standard Dictionary)

Wala lang. Those words were running through my head this past few days, Parang I'll be dead if I can't write them today (I can't compose using those words kaya sinulat ko nlang ng nlang ganyan) with no particular reason at all. Dead.

***

Anyways, I know I was about to lose lbs this holy week. But what happened? I munched over the cookies, which I believe has 40 cal/cookie. Sleep like I came from a battle. Read like there's no tomorrow. And eat, eat, eat like I was deprived in so many centuries.

Would you believe me when I say I watched TV lenten-special-programs because of boredom, because I cannot go out, and because we don't have DVD player and cable (looser!?)? O yeah. I watched wansapantaym, the drama special about seeing God in many ways, the 12-ep-marathon of 7th heaven, etc. When I started to feel that I needed to be good, to choose "to be in heaven while on earth", do the right things but still be considerate to others, there's this scenario that let me change my mind again. I mean, I know I'm not mabait. I know that I often take for granted the people who love me kaya nga I'm trying, or at least I started feeling that I need to change some part of me. Pero kaya nga lang, that set-up let me realized that some things are meant to be unchanged. I cannot pretend to be someone that is completely unlikely me. Kaya I decided to be at least balance for myself and as well to my friends. I cannot force myself to keep quiet when I wanted to scream. I cannot force myself to stay awake when I feel like sleeping. I cannot force myself to pretend to be mabait when I know and everyone knows I'm not. I cannot force myself to smile when I know that there's no reason to smile at all. I cannot force myself to be with somebody whom I hate to see. I force myself to cry when I feel like laughing. But, to be balance I can just show a bit of this and that. So I do things that I know will be equal (I assume) to me and to everybody.

It's hard when there are things that you want to do but for the sake of others you cannot.

***

what's the feeling of being squeezed?

1. Being squeezed on your cheeks when they think you're cute?

2. Being squeezed to tell the truth?

3. Being squeezed when tied up to different situations?

4. Being squeezed just to let you drain whatever you have?

5. Being squeezed in an squeezer?

6. Being squeezed to get some juice?

7. Being squeezed when you don't like it all?

Haha I don't know the feeling of being squeezed in many ways but I do know the feeling of being squeezed when you're cute. Hahaha it's a mixture of pain and gladness. Pain, because they're squeezing me so hard. Gladness, because at least someone has seen that I'm cute and nice and kind and beautiful..hahahahha

Only God knows what the hell i'm thinking about right this moment.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY APRIL LACOPANTO (thanks sa pakain hahaha)

* *Posted by rakelyvia at 9:36 PM

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Monday, April 10, 2006

.......is it or it isn't it.......

I did it. I got an average of 1.44 for the first and second sem so I'm qualified for the scholarship. Actually, its half lang, but anyways, that's a big help prin noh. But still, I'm hoping and praying that they will grant me that scholarship kahit na I've committed violation na.

Knina sa school, I was seated on the floor, my things were scattered around, and I was like an idiot pressing my cellphone (coz I didn't bring calculator) and computing my grades. And when I saw the digits, flashing in front of me, and telling me I did it, the feeling was inexplicable. And in 5 seconds, I was flying.

1. I won't tell my parents that I made it, so I'll have a kickback of 20K.
2. and when it happens, I'll buy a new mouse and printer for my poor PC .
3. I'll reopen my bank account and start saving, again, for the future haha
4. I can buy all the shopaholic and summit books in powerbooks.
5. and I will buy na, the sauna belt in shopping tv.

But of course, I cannot keep it to my mom. My mom is my ultimate partner in crime. Maybe if I'll tell her, she’ll give me atleast 40% of it. Hay. So after 5 seconds, I'm back na in my normal thinking.

Ok right now, I'm alone and tired and hungry. My mom left early this morning for zambales. She'll be back later this afternoon. Tired, because we walked from CEU to recto. Hungry, I don't know. I think the product of nothingness is hunger. I'm really striving to lose ten lbs, but I guess it's not meant to be. Haha . and for that I'm saying goodbye na to my hundred bucks. Have I told you that one more week, I'll be totally broke? My wallet is getting thinner and thinner as days passed. O god. How can I survive summer if I only got P800 in my drawer? Nowadays, P800 seems to be nothing.

P800 will just be spent in Mcdo, Tapa King, Yellow Cab and Starbucks.

Hot. Hot. Hot.

These are the days I'm imagining my feet feeling the white sand beach of bora. I haven't been there actually, I just picked that line from somewhere hehe. When can I get to bora? In 3years time pa. As I said, after this summer, I will be the busiest-and-kj-aom in history. I mean all of us of course will be busy, but mine will be, I assume, the undeniably busiest sked.

And all I can do, is sit in front of the TV and eat pineapple (chilled in the freezer for 2 days, as I learned from tazha). Talking about losing weight?

* *Posted by rakelyvia at 3:45 PM

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Friday, April 07, 2006

.......frustrated-happy-happy-happy.......

e since im a bit happy today, lets start with the frustrations.

1. the night before april 6, im really pissed off with someone.
anyways, im prohibited to tell the whole story for he/she is stil our friend (at least in ordinary days) after all. but the point is, she/he always have this certain attitude that make us forget all the good things she/he did. i mean, whenever we have situation/circumstances/plans-for-the-group like this, even before when we're still younger, and younger=immaturity, he/she always became the topic of all topics because (the author has deleted the content for privacy's reasons)....

2. this is still connected from above.

and then april 6, we (with chel ann, znder, milan) went to school to check out our grades and section and since (i can proudly say) i did well last finals, and i got the section i want from the start plang, that frustration became history... for a while.

then i went, with rona and peng to UST. we passed the requirements needed to pass for peng be able to shift course. and rona, bona, ronald, stef passed. that adds to my happiness.plus, plus,plus mimi passed the ITM. i'm proud of you guys.

then went to mimi's to have lunch and magtitigan the thing we always do, and i think we're contented with that. you know, the presence of your friends, even without talking, just the mere presence of them makes you feel comfortable and makes you forget all the feelings of "toxicness", frustration, depression, stress. And its a great feeling. and i want to quote something from the THE DRAMA QUEEN by Abi Aquino:

"And here's the truth: i've never met anyone else, besides Jorge and Nats, who could spend much time as i can on nothingness. because empathy is such a cheap and common virtue, i've always found great merit in being able to sustain a conversation on nothingness for more than two hours"

these are the perfect words to describe it. lets just change Jorge and Nats to ronj and mimi.plus tasa. hayyyy..

after an hour or two of talking about nothingness, we decided to go to mcdo and have some sundae. and bojie was there too. there was an hilarious move from rona,hahahaha..

* *Posted by rakelyvia at 9:39 AM

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

.......HIT COUNTER.......

o well, i'm just about to blog about something, which unfortunately i forgot what its about, so i decided na maglagay nlang ng hit counter. hahaha

so this will just lead to another senseless-wla-lang-magawa-c-rakel post.

its been 3 weeks since my first day of vacatio--MY FIRST DAY of vacation. parang ambilis, coz last feb. lang i was dreaming of unlimited sleep, dvd marathon, being a couch potato and swimming.. and now, i cant believe i'm savoring every minute of summer vacation. as in.

my birthday celeb was held last march 25.

the next day we went to stef's bday celeb in megamall.

march 29: jogging [hahaha]

Then march 30-31, we (rona and her blockies) went to zambales.

April 1 we (tazha and i) went to batangas for visita iglesia.

April 3 we (mimi, rona, peng) went to tazha's place.

and on april 7 we're going to have outing pa

1 more week pa and i will be toatlly broke.buti nlang i still have an allowance of 50/day.

anyways, i dont regret naman spending money for those lakads kse i feel it will be the last summer vacation i will ever have in 3 more years. So speaking of nursing, i just came to realize that i'm really not takot in blood. i'm takot lang in laslas and any form of suicides. as in, the thought of laslas or whatever suicide makes me puke and makes my senses paralyzed.

nursing. i always tell this to my friends that i really dont know kung tama ba tong pinasukan kong landas hahahaha. i can take nman courses that's a lot more easier than nursing. but this is the only, seriously, the only course i'm sure na alam ko ung gnagawa and pays well (sa mga katulad ko that belongs to average society).. For example, legal management: the heck! i dont even know what's the difference between managment and "legal" mangment. all i know is that mimi's taking this course and soon will be heading for law and we will be benefit from that because she will be our richest friend hehe...

next is HRM: this looks like an easy course, pero parang it is the course ng mga wlang masulat sa application form.gets? parang this is the course ng mga hindi decided kung ano gusto nila mrating. i repeat PARANG, so its my opinion lang..

ENGINEERING: sa dinami dami ng kumukuha nito, panu nko? and im not good in math and other subj na major nito. dba? dba?

ARCHI: my kuya and borther-in-law took this course and i know how hard it is. ayoko din. plus mahirap din to kung di ka magaling.. wala kang projects.

There's this feeling that I will be good in a course that has something to do with volcanoes. Haha. Come on! Pero what's that ba? Volcanology? Sang school may ganun?
And when I was a kid I wanted to be a diplomat. Parang ang saya nun. My hopes and dreams nung bata pa ko e have something to do with politics. Like diplomats nga, lawyer and I'll run for whatever position. When I was 14, I wanted to run for SK but I know my parents especially my mom won't permit me. Pero I'll confess that until now, I have that kid inside me secretly hoping that I can still reach that dream. As in. I still wanted to be the President of the Philippines. Or if the constitution has been changed by the time I'm qualified to be one, I wanted to be the prime minister. But how? I'll be the first Nurse/prime minister or first nurse/president. That sounds good. Haha. And I know that I'll be proud of myself if that happens.

Hay.. but that would be in a long run pa. For now, I'm hoping that mapapnindigan ko what I'm doing right now. After all, I can still be a lawyer after I finished nursing.

After writing this, I conclude that what I want, atleast 65% of me wanted to be a lawyer. Haha.