Saturday, December 31, 2005
.......strips of nothing.......
i really dont know what to write.usually, when i set off to blog (at least this year, cuz last year, nagsusulat din ako ng wlang patutunguhan hehe) i already know what to say, my grudges, what happened, and everything that i wanna say, but today i just feel like blogging with no particular reason at all. . haha so i'll just write and go with the flow. (and oh i'm practicing my english vocabulary cuz --gandahan nyo ung pronunciation nito ha!? cuzzzzz ahhahaha-- i've been speaking and writing a lot of mandarin and chinese characters these days.. so bear with me! ahhaahhaha)
this will be strips of nothing..
3 more days and we're back to school again. hayyy xmas vacation is super fast. i cant even recall a moment that i enjoyed sleeping. Everyday, oh not everyday, every other day hehe i have a scheduled work to do, i mean school stuff.
*2 chapters of mandarin exercises (tapos na)
*2 chapters of stat..i wanted to finish it before classes resume kse my teacher is so unpredictable,she might be possesed on wed and give us quiz agad..haha swear!!and i need, i repeat, I NEED to get 1-1.25 here kse secret...
*copy chel ann's notes in chem,cuz that day my hands were unconscious..haha before chem, we saw that huge streamer saying "GIVE BLOOD ON CHRISTMAS DAY" and i felt my organs were malfunctioning! come on! its blood pare on christmas day! if i only have the courage to donate, i will...but... grrrrr (why do they need to post that streamer beside lib!? i hate it..) and chel ann with dumayas continuously singing "give blood on christmas day..christamas day.." with matching the author cannot describe sorryhaha that's the story..
*mandarin again, cuz we have a long test on WEDNESDAY NA!
*chem again, cuz thursday is the BIG DAY! and i wanted to get 1-1.5 cuz its chem man! haaaayy.....PRESSURE
so tell me guys, how on earth can i sleep without my conscience bugging me? and we need to run (every now and then) to the grocery kse we always forget something. and there's just too many "lakad" --parties, movies..-- and i cant refuse to come. plus new year's fast pacing so i need to renovate my long lost jungle este room.
i dunno, but i'm looking forward to summer vacation! yipeee!!!!!!
so speaking of new year, 2006 will be the first year since grade 5 that i won't do any resolution. i wanted what im doing right now.. but except of course on losing weighT! grrrr its my EVERYDAY resolution..hahaha
on the otherhand, i just came across old testis.. i almost forgot that there was a time--period, that i was overly, superly, duperly, to the highest level obsessed with SIXCYCLEMIND! that i considered studying in CEU just to meet them, and look at me now, i'm there but i haven't seen even a strand of their hair! hahaha funny...
maybe i was really meant for CEU. nyay!
and i miss doing testis on AOM, saying the crazy stuffs they do in school kse ngayon all i have to say to them is i miss them and updates on our famous delaying tactics! haha how can i write that again without saying "i miss the day..." or "i miss the way..." .
and you know the feeling sucks and you cant do anything about it..
o well...
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 2:17 PM
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
.......waiting is PAINFUL.......
(got this from friendster bulletin..thanks kung sino man gumawa nito anyways...ung mga nka BOLD un na un...)Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which one to do is the worse kind of suffering." painful things
01. flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see
02. bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget
03. showing that you care
04. finding a way to mend a broken heart
05. learning that you've been used by someone you truly love
06. saying "i love you" when you mean it and when you don't
07. letting go of a person you've just learned to love
08. realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted
09. realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with
10. waiting for promises you know she or he'll ever keep
11. saying your love for someone who loves somebody else
12. reminiscing the good times u shared together
13. shielding your heart to love somebody
14. trying to hide what you really feel
15. having a commitment w/ someone that you know would not last
16. trying to hide the tears that voluntarily fall from your eyes
17. sharing the one you love w/ someone else
18. loving a person too much
19. giving up someone you never thought of giving up
20. falling in love for the first time
21. loving someone you haven't seen
22. having the right love at the wrong time
23. exerting effort to make the relationship last or work
24. not being appreciated when you know you've given your best
25. taking the risk to fall in love again
26. hiding your relationship from someone else
27. controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
28. choosing between two persons whom you really love
29. finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of
30. seeing the person you love with someone else
31. learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared
32. seeing the one you love fall for someone else
33. falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again
34. learning to trust after you have been betrayed
35. accepting that it was not meant to be
36. smiling when all you want to do is cry
37. falling and knowing that it can never be
38. not being able to love the person who truly cares for you
39. saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you
40. hearing that he can never love you the way that you love him
41. saying that you are over someone you still love
42. being friends again and learning to let go of each other coz you both know it is
better that way
43. convincing oneself that you are not in love when you know that you are
44. having to let go because you know that he deserves someone else
45. trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be most relationships fail not because of the absence of love.
Love is always present... it's just that one loves too much and the other loves too little.... if i cud ask God 1 thing it would be "are you destind for me?" if he says yes den ill love you even more! if he says no den ill continue to love you til i can make him agree dat wer rili meant to be..
they say "Love is blind.." but in reality..LOVE IS NOT BLIND..it simply enables one to see things others fail to see! I came upon fiftieth roman and nothing left except five inverted three and then YOU came last...
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 7:48 AM
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Monday, December 05, 2005
.......Ronj,,, psst psst!.......
Rona!!!!!! tagnan mo! lalake ka pa jan! hehehehe o well...
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 9:09 PM
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