Monday, October 31, 2005
.......3-day baguio experience.......
your views in life may change in just 3 days.Now, really,
i'm open to everything..
*drinking
*smoking
*drugs..
*sex
i sorta learned how to smoke when we were in baguio..
we drnk..well i must say n i enjoyed whatever we drnnk there.
i was disappointed somehow by someone..
i got scared a bit.
but all in all i had fun.
it is super lamig in baguio plus umuulan pa so super duper lamig na.. inaasar nga nila ako na ung jacket ko pang malate lang di pwede sa baguio.ronj's classmates are super warm. nung umaga when we were in the van, i didnt talk. i was not like the raki you used to know when travelling. lagi ko lang sinasabi s knila na "magrerecharge lang ako para kapag la na kyo gana, ako nman magsasalita..hehehe.." coz theye are super hyper and honestly i didnt feel any eagerness to talk to them katakot e. bagong salta lang ako tpos mkikijoin nko, dba?
habang ngbabyahe, i was having second thoughts, why am I here, what am I doing, im suppose to be at home sleeping coz classes will start on Thursday, I don’t belong here and stuffs like that. It’s not that they let me feel outcast but hindi nman ako manhid. I was really really got disappointed to somebody, but of course I understand. Chances come and go easily so you have to grab it as soon as you feel it. Lagi nman ako ganito e, I’ll just confide this to someone and the rest will be history. Anyways, ronj’s friends prove me wrong. They are super friendly and I get along with them easily. Nung anu un e, yung after ako turuan magpoker. Well I proved to myself na hindi ako slow learner hehehe.. Got it on the first round and I won 80 pesos maybe because of beginner's luck.
As what I was saying, I'm open to almost everything. I don't blame anyone if they are doing it. It's their choice. Like me, I choose to be like this. I drink. I don't smoke but I want to learn how atleast I know. I don't use drugs. I'm not into sex. But why is everybody pretending to be what they are not?? It's not proper. It's not good if you see someone do things that they don't do at all. Lalo na if you know that they're not really doing it but for the sake of God knows what they'll do it. I can't tell them to stop cause as what I've said it's their choice. Choice to be a dumbass.
3 days maybe enough to change your views in life.
Before going to baguio, I was stuck to my position against drugs, pre marital sex and stuffs like that. But look at me now, I'm talking like I've done that. It's the matter of people's perception of life or how they explain those things to you. Actually, they didn't explain anything to me. I just came up to a conclusion like this. They showed me that it's not bad to engage yourself to those things as long as you don't abuse it and still have ambitions. THEY do it but not as often as they can. They do it but they are not wasting time to learn. While doing it they learn. Things that can be hardly seen at school. Things that reflect social life. How? I can't explain. Basta when you hang out with them you'll know. They didn't intend to change my perceptions but it's my choice. For me, I won't do it pa rin but my mind is broader than before when it comes to stuffs like that. Eto ha, they have time to do those things but they have ambitions that change the usual scenario that we know. Ambitions that they hold on to study hard. In short, nagaaral pren sila and nageexcel.
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 9:25 AM
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
.......OLOPSC "HOMECOMING (arjey)".......
AOM in quad,, where mini olympics happened!haha
AOM 04-05 in our old classrum..sorry AOM 05-06 trespassing kme!
AOM in faculty.. hai...
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 12:36 AM
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
.......hmmm..HOW WILL U KNOW?.......
HOW TO TELL IF A GUY LIKES A GIRL:1. The guy will try to make you laugh.
2. He'll flirt with you when he can.
3. He might try to show off around you.
4. He'll help you out, if you ask for it.
5. He'll stick up for you when you need it most.
6. He'll be friendly to you and all your friends.
7. He might call you for no good reason.
8. He might make fun of you, in a joking way.
9. He'll tell you that you did good, even if you did horrible.
10. He'll make eye contact with a happy grin on his face.
HOW TO TELL IF A GIRL LIKES A GUY:
1. The girl will laugh at all your jokes.
2. She'll stare at you with a smile on her face.
3. She'll ask you who you like, continuously.
4. She might try to make you jealous.
5. She'll beg that you do everything for her.
6. She might start talking to your friends.
7. She'll talk to you about the different varieties of guys.
8. She'll always seem to be talking about how nice you are.
9. She'll always be flirting with every other guy except you.
10. She'll always ask what to do in a bad situation.
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 3:10 PM
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.......to ronj.........
ronj, nhagilap ko lang to kung san.. hahahaha copy paste! hehehewag moko patayin!
JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW
by backstreetboys..
"...I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all againJust want you to know..."
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 3:00 PM
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Monday, October 10, 2005
.......DIARY ENTRY.......
this is my diary entry last october 5, 2005.."...right at this moment, Im literally rolling in my bed. i dont know but my heart is jumping up and down, my eyes are blinking, i am smiling non stop. is this it? i cant explain. I feel like i'm soaring in the sky. stars colliding in front of me. i can see eternal sunshine. waaahhhhh i am super duper happy. kse............"
after a couple of minutes...
"fuck! right now, I am literally crying. fuck! bkt b npka chismosa ko? nlaman ko tuloy ung totoo.....
after k ba tlga nyang pasiyahin, papaiyakin ka nya? yung ngpasaya b syo, sya rin magpapaiyak?..."
* *Posted by rakelyvia at 7:40 PM
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